Covergirl Callous

Every time I think I got it right

Something tells me that I'm wrong

Counting down the spaceship's gonna fly

I think I'm going to the moon

There's a chill and it's running down my spine

You know I get so weird and nervous

I'm hungry all the time but I can't fill

And there's a hole that no one knows about

I can't find you

I can't find me

I can't find you

I can't find me

Everything in me just falls apart

I'm wasting traffic with my speed

I don't believe in things like God and love

I'm tired of being wrong

I'm carelessly moving in your direction

And I know I'm gonna fall

I cause disaster am I gonna screw this up

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You can't find me

You can't find you

You can't find me

You can't find you

You will see under my skin

You will feel under my skin

Won't will tell me everything about you

I will see under your skin

I will feel under your skin

I will tell you everything about me

I don't know you

You don't know me

I don't know you

You don't know me

I can't find you

You can't find me

I can't find you

You can't find me


This is me

I looked into your eyes

Expecting to see a color

That wasn't there

Your blond hair caught the wind

And I didn't care

Until you walked into my life

There wasn't much there

Until you look a little bit closer

And you'll find a little girl

Growing up in a crooked world

Yeah you picked me up

When I had fallen down

My life is on a one way track

And I am on a clearer path

What was I hoping for

Some kind of miracle

Now that I have found some kind of god

I am hoping that my heart doesn't fall

I am picking up pieces of a past

That was so broken

Yeah I had a mother and a father

But I was alone I was alone

Today I'm sober

Yeah I was an addict and

Darkness was my only friend

And there's a hurt that I cannot pretend

So this is me

So here I am

So this is me

So this is me

So here I am

I'm standing here before you now

So this is me

And I'm okay

So this is me

Monster

Yesterday you told the preacher

That you thought satan was sleeping in your sheets

Is it just hallucinations

Creeping up your spine

I think I touched a nerve

Traveling through your body into your mind

There's a constant craving

A rushing mad

And it's driving you crazy

So what's the holy man telling you now

Get down on your knees

And pray to something you don't believe in

Who's the monster in your closet

Why's he tearing down the walls

Just an angry boy

Just an angry girl

Put together by the jigsaw puzzle pieces

And what do you get

But a monster in your closet

Tearing down the wall

Like a firefly you couldn't catch

Dancing freely in the sky

Your name is tattooed where your heart once lied

And the demons found his way inside

Feel my insides pouring from within

Yeah I hurt you

So who am I to blame

So who's the woman sleeping in your bed tonight

I am sleeping all alone

I am wondering if you think of me

I just want to pick up the phone

And call you to say hello

Oblivion

Everyone needs, everyone needs just a little bit

Everyone needs a little bit of oblivion

Turn me over, upside down a different story every time.

Deliver me.  Recover me.  Make me stay.

All I want is what I want is what I give

Tomorrow comes another day with another change

I'm just trying to make it thru the afternoon

Surrender me remember me make me stay

It's been awhile since I've been here

I never see a change in me

It's been a while since I've been here

You never see the change in me

Cause your lies are covered with mine

Your lies are covered with mine

And your lies are covered with mine

People never notice how you really feel

The company is drowning  out the broken heart, again my fault

This misery finds open arms touch me carefully

Open me uncover me make me stay

I'm fixing me to comfort you, but you don't see

I need a little bit of oblivion

It's been awhile since I've been here

Surrender me, surrender me, Make me stay

Everyone knows

There's someone in the back

Pulling on my sleeve

Bad habit won't release me

Asphyxiate me

Just drag it out and leave

Cover me then smother me

You say you have to hate me

Just so you can love me

But I know better now

There's someone in the back

Taking off their clothes

x-rated to the core

I'm trying to ignore

All these open doors

Temptations deceiving

Nothing relieves me

I'm begging you to need me

I'm living just to die

Everyone knows all about me

But nobody really understands

Everyone knows all about me

You know they'll never

You know they'll never understand

So everyone knows all about me

But nobody really understands

Well I am in the past

Searching for the answers

But nothing comes up

The angel of the morning

She's cut her wrists again

And my nose keeps bleeding

There's someone in the back

Pulling on my t-shirt

Go on go on go on go on

And take it off

Cleaning up the damage

Picking up the tab

There's no salvation here

Dollar bills for powder

You think that it looks cool

But you've no idea

The glamour of addiction

Took away my life

And now I'm fighting for freedom

I'm trying to reach out for the

One thing that I've never let myself

Touch before and you and you and you...

And you know everything.


Channel 41

I'm delicate without your insight

And there's a thing or two I've got to learn

Tell me what is my confusion

Is the cure inside of you

It's pitiful my eyes keep wanting you

And tori amos fiils the concrete wall

The heroin is getting to my head

And cancer traps your body underneath

I cannot give you my attention

Is it a phase or my delusion

Will the weather man delay

I'm begging to refuse it

When you reach around me

So will the weather man delay

There's a creep inside of my machine

To camouflage the grey

I'm positive that I can find it

Tell me does she run through you

I'm bleeding to your music

And there is nothing in between

There is no emotion

While I'm feeling me go wrong

I cannot give you my attention

Is it a phase or my delusion

Will the weather man delay

I'm begging to refuse it

When you reach around me

Will the weather man delay

I like the way it feels when

You're begging me to stay

They tell me you believe

That the truth lies deep inside of me.


Prescription Love

What is this chemical reaction

That makes me feel the way I do

Satisfaction came in 40 milligrams

Prescription love you can't refill

When everyone can see the outside

What will I use to cover me

My minds in disarray

I hit the maximum degree

She sleeps under the gasoline

My body walks into a stiffer lip

The comfort cures another nose bleed

You can barely feel me breathing

It's just a pill one more day another thrill

It's just a pill one more time and I should fill

It's just a pill one more day another kill

My bodies numb after the blow

Suspicions lurk into your eyes

I am looking right thru you

Your suicide it keeps repeating

I cover all of you in alcohol

And I wish that I could hate you

I take another one it's plenty

But I can still feel everything

I took one more and then another some

Nothing takes away the emptiness

Mrs. Dyers

You look so comfortable sitting in your liars chair

Hey Mrs. Dyers what's your husband wearing

Hey Mrs. Dyers are your children smiling

The weather is changing and winters forgotten

Why aren't you smiling your blue skies turned gray

There is a lesson to be learned by you

Everybody cries

And everybody loses

So hey Mrs. Dyers why don't you try

You're talking so sweetly like nothing could ever be wrong

You're framed as a teacher and you're put in your place

Give me one reason to look the other way

Cause fighting is easy, but living just hurts

When you gonna turn around

You push him away then you beg him to stay

You can't find tomorrow the future is faded

The clock is still ticking and it's wasting the time

And I am still waiting for something to change

There is a sadness and it's pulling at your knees

Why don't you come over I'm feeling that way too

You keep on talking about the dreams you let die

Your looking for something to keep you alive


Blue Skies

I guess it's you who spins me nervously into

Romantic views

Skyscrapers high I'm afraid to fall

I think it's you and I am fading itnto

Your blue skies

Machine gun head just might explode

She doesn't care that I am seriously

Disorganized

I think she likes me just the way I am

I'm lost in time where the real world ends it's

A fine line

What kind of morning tastes this good

I__ I__ I__

I am addicted to you

I found you in the dark under a

Midnight blue

Where I named every start for you

I cannot break and my bad habits start to

Melt away

You drive me crazy in a good way

It is you. It is you. it is you.

That makes it a possibility

To believe in

Giving love a second chance

I__ I__ I__

I have fallen into you

I__ I__ I__

I am lying under your blue skies

I__ I__ I__

I am addicted to you

Electric

She's electric she's in my head

She's electric she's in my head

And now the rain begins to fall

Does the weather bring you down

I wish that I could wrap my arms around

Or does the weather bring you down

Where's your innocence

Does it cause controversy

Where's your innocence

It's lying in your driveway

She's deceptive she's in my head

She's deceptive she's in my head

And misery loves company

Does the drama wear you thin

It's time to pick myself up off the floor

She's such a mystery

Can you hold conversation

You're such a mystery

Do you believe what I say


Icicle

Icicle he melts the outside

Icicle he can see through

To the other side of you-

What's happening to you

What's happening to you

Impossible he came in seconds

It's possible that he might find

His way to the place inside of you-

What's happening to you

What's happening to you

Brandy's empty on your mind

It's 5 am and you're still drunk again

Cigarette and there's no ashtray

It's 6 am and you're still drunk again

It's logical he knew the answer

It's logical now he peels thru

To the part it's getting hard

The chemical he puts to action

The chemical that he reacts to

Makes it difficult for you-

What's happening to you

What's happening to you

Brandy's empty on your mind

It's 5 am and you're still drunk again

Cigarette and there's no ashtray

It's 6 am and you're still drunk again


Stranger

I never wanted anyone

The way that I want you

You're a stranger in the backroom

Yeah I'd like to get to know you

By the time that this is over

We'll be drinking of the hurt

I called you up this morning

You said everything is perfect

So if you're acting like a phony

Well then phony's all you'll get

If you've never quite been broken

Well then this just might be it

You're the only one to break me

And I'm the only one who's left behind

You're the only one to break me

And I'm the one who has to change

You're the only one to break me

And I'm the only one to blame

You say you quit the junk

You just need a fixed emotion

Now that I can see right thru

I say fuck this good intention

You're a stranger in the backroom

I am stranger number two

The rhythm kicks the motion

And I cannot follow thru

You won't find what you're looking for in a stranger

You' won't find what you're looking for in me


I fell asleep

For the longest time I thought that I would never die

And there's a lot of things you thought that you knew about me

Will desperation spill the secrets I'm trying hard to hide

My scattered symptoms spread disease I can't control this

It's the hardest time when rehabilitation fails

You cannot find me and you've been waiting all night long

It takes a fist to break what violent eyes can't wash away

I swallowed all of you and maybe this time I will sleep

Have you heard about all the hearts I've broken
Will I ever get it right?
And I am positive it's not  just me that ?s hurting
Will I ever get it right?         

Through the past the needle crashed

And she says I'm never there

Confess address the union

Cocaine makes the image pierce the blue

Underneath the sheets the phantom sleep

With icy breath that's cutting deeper

Flip the switch that kills the local news

And she says call me soon

Resist the tendency it's borderline with all the sex I need

Hating me it sucks to bleed between the speed

Yeah this superman is dead

I lost control inside this hole

Where jesus tells me it's alright

My thoughts dilute the panicked view

Where I found everything in me

I guess you heard about all the hearts I've broken

Did I ever get it right

And I know I said that our love would never die

But I'm a liar

I guess I fell asleep while you told me about your dreams

I'm the constant creep

You've been sleeping next to

And all that I can see is another victory for me

I'm coming clean while you tell me about your dreams

Pressure pins me to the floor

You cannot take it anymore

I tipped the scales and rode her rails

Now I've gotta jump the train

The ego trip just pulled the hip

The pain that pleasures me conflicts

Justify the only lies with fingerprints that I've been tied to

              
I know you've heard about all the hearts I've broken

Will I ever get it right?

And I am positive it's not just me that hurting

Will I ever get it right?

Will I ever get it right?

Silent Morning

Silence makes the morning unsure

Wrapped in a blanket of guilt

Black and white melts into gray

Yesterday caught the front page

Colors of blue start to fade

Telling us tales of the heart

Walking a distance to far

Leaving behind painted dreams

Choking down breakfast with tears

A breath clipped the edge of my ear

Weak to the doorway of glass

Thoughts pulled out files of the past

Forgetting has never been this hard

And wanting just burned a new scar

Slipping on words of the mouth

Picking the ones that hurt less

Drinking the thirsts never quenched

Foaming with rage overflows

Spoken and nailed to the cross

Finding truth in dark eyes

I stole a kiss in your sleep

Covering eyes not to see

Arms holding onto the moment

Cause I don't know if there's gonna be another one

I don't know if there's gonna be another one

I don't know if there's gonna be another one

Dying the light is turned off

Hoping return stands a chance

Fighting for rights known to none

Giving what's already gone

Chained to the bottle with proof

And laughter has covered a frown

Knowing the end before told

Lost with the map that you drew

Colors are blurred at this view

Promises broke thru the skin

Halos were painted in gold

Lies freed the cat from it's cage

LOVE LIKE WAR - 2003
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